I just received my sister's comment on my older post. She is coming back today :).
Oh ya, I did walk around on her blog, but she never update it almost one year. :(
Suddenly I have many thoughts come to mind...
Since the day my sister went to Singapore, I was less keeping in touch with her (only via YM if she's online, but it's rare). Sometimes I rather blame myself that I couldn't do more things to her as before I did. Remembering the days when we were kids, we're having a lot of happiness, sadness, silliness, laughing, crying, and many, many more. These memories quite squeezing my tears.
As an elder brother, protecting my sister from harms is necessary. But when she's feeling lonely out there, when she's running in trouble, when she's feeling sad, ..., I was just doing nothing here. I don't know why I could forgot a very simple 160-length of short message or a 30-seconds of phone call.
I remember one day, she asked me to take her and her friends from Singapore to sightseeing around Batam, but I declined because I was busying my stupid thesis. Yet another one day, I told her I would go to Singapore with couple of my friends for 2 days, she asked me to bring her along with us, and I said OK to her. But when the last hour that we're about going back to Batam, I just remembered that I forgot to contact her. I was feeling so guilty when my eldest sister told me that she was waiting my call all day.
All of these silly things I have done to her, she never took in mind. As I remember one day when I went to Singapore, she took me strolling around until almost broke down my foot.
I feel very, very sorry to her. I do not deserve as a good elder brother.
I miss my childhood so much.
Today she's coming back home :).
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